I have been dealing with this disorder for over a decade in secret. Only around two years ago, did I even realize that I have a legitimate disorder that others experience too. It wasn't until more recently, that I started vocalizing about my struggles and those around me actually seem to have started to better understand. I have spent the majority of my life being secretive, feeling misunderstood and depressed. Even though now I am now aware of my disorder, and can more accurately approaching dealing with it, it is still a daily struggle. I mostly write my articles in my car, because it is the only place where I feel safe from triggers, and relaxed enough to concentrate.