Misophonia has been the Unknown Burden in my Life Since Forever
Ever since I was little, I have been showing signs of misophonia; even if I did not know it at the time. The strangest sign I had was my incredible anger and panic I got whenever someone rubbed their hands together. The sound was almost causing me pain and for a long time, I did not know why. As the years went by, the triggers became worse and grew in size.
I Have Over Ten Triggers and The List Continues to Grow
My current list of triggers includes: Chewing, breathing, hand rubbing, loud talking, stomping, sniffing, coughing, ball-point pen tapping, sneezing, slurping, the repetition of certain words, and even certain voices have been known to trigger me. As I have gotten older, the list grows and each sound becomes even more unbearable to handle.
I Did Not Even Know What Misophonia Was Until Last Year
The reason why I was so intolerable to certain sounds was a mystery for a really long time. However, after years of wondering and a specific melt-down when my friend was simply chewing a cookie, my family and I decided to research what was going on and pretty soon I was diagnosed with Misophonia.
Coding was a Calming Mechanism for Me
I started coding when I was six years old when I taught myself how to design websites. The idea that I could create something with a push of a button was incredible to me and I only wanted to learn more. Whenever I got the chance, I would learn a new programming language. Soon practicing one language grew to three languages and soon grew to the fact that I was now fluent in fourteen coding languages. Staying in my room and coding on my computer, was almost like a calming mechanism. I knew what I was doing was a double edged sword: I knew I should not be staying in my room like that, but I also knew that I had a gift and I could do something special with it. When you learn how to code, you can learn to make anything virtual if you wish. You can figure out how to make that app that amazes you or the website that you use on a daily basis. However, I knew I could not be like this forever, and began my journey to fight against my misophonia. One that I continue to fight.
Misophonia is Not Always a Bad Thing
I like to say that my attention to certain sounds caused by my misophonia has helped me to have amazing attention to detail when it comes to sounds, music, and voices. Which helps a lot when I play the clarinet in my school’s jazz band. People with misophonia are also known to be incredibly creative, which helps when I come up with new website or app ideas.
What Am I Doing Now?
Now seventeen, I have accomplished a lot. I created two organizations:, an online service that pairs computer science tutors to students with disabilities and an online resource and community hub for jewish programmers. These organizations are all made to close the minority gaps in technology fields, one of my goals in life. With the help of friends and family, I am beginning to find methods to overcome my misophonia and learn to live with it. It has not been easy but it is happening. Helping others and continuing to pursue my love for programming has definitely helped with that. Having misophonia is a huge challenge for anyone, but finding things in life that make you happy will help make it a little bit easier.