Another writer for Misophonia International E-Magazine, Sharon graduated yesterday. She messaged the rest of the staff and crew, with concern about the actual ceremony. Not only was she triggered by one of the speakers, but there would be large congregation of people, which guarantees triggers, and automatic anxiety, for Misophones, in general. This magazine has featured an article before, written by Vicki Sladowski, from the position of a parent going to see her son graduate, and struggling to be mentally present for such an milestone event, because of all of the aversive stimuli surrounding her. During her graduation ceremony, Sharon wanted to wear her earplugs that play brown noise, because wearing them, was the only way she felt comfortable and calm, exposed to all of that same stimuli. However, she expressed that her family members may not be too keen about this, probably because it might look strange, and people could ask questions. Graduation are a big day, it should be filled with good memories, yet, neurological disorders do not let up for celebrations. For the majority of Misophones, every day is a day they face their disorder, days that are suppose to be positive and happy, are no different.
Misophonia is serious.
Misophonia causes me act freakish and odd, for far too long, I was ashamed and defeated and sunk into a dark place, but now, I embrace and respect my uniqueness. Yes, it is strange and weird that I cannot physically and emotionally allow myself to repetitively sense a trigger, and not flee, stop, or mute the trigger in some way. Additionally, once I’m wound up from a trigger, I have to consciously calm and soothe myself back down to normal, before I can re-enter reality, and focus, without a charge of adrenaline rushing through me. It’s weird, and it is exhausting, but I have a neurological disorder, that pumps extreme floods of weird hormones, and sensations throughout my body, at the slightest noises and experiences. I live with it, I have no other choice. The sooner all sufferers and those around us, accept that we cannot control being triggered and accommodate it, one isolating aspect of the disorder is lifted, and it becomes a little bit easier to process.
Don’t struggle scared and alone, or be uncomfortable.
We can still be comfortable and happy; We are still human.
Congratulations Sharon, and anyone else that has completed school with Misophonia, or any other learning disorder, or disability of any kind. Graduate school is very impressive, but even High school is a pretty big feat. You are amazing, and should be very proud, for what you had to overcome to get to that point. Give yourself some credit.
My reply to Sharon…
She wore her earplugs, during her ceremony, and took them out before going up and receiving her associates degree. People probably noticed, but who cares? She was a lot better off, than if she hadn’t worn them. There is no need for a suffer to subject selves to a surefire panic attack, if it can be prevented. For my high school graduation, I wore earplugs. I kept popping the one furthest away from everything, in and out, to hear things around me, when needed, and hid it in my gown to grab my diploma. Sometimes, with disorders, like Misophonia, you just have to do whatever it takes to stay content.
Sufferers: Don’t be afraid to take precautions, or be comfortable.
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