Accepting that you have something wrong with you and that its out of your control is sometimes the toughest pill to swallow. At least, it has been for me. For my whole life I never knew why simple everyday sounds bothered and upset me so much. I couldn’t fathom why sounds of bare feet on the ground and people whispering and floors creaking and so many other sounds ruined me from the outside in. For some time I thought it was normal and that everyone felt that way.
But then it hit me, there’s no cure for this, this is what I have to deal with for the rest of my life. This isn’t going away. I was listening to a press conference on misophonia and this woman, I think her name was Steph, was explaining her story, and how when she found out she had misophonia she said, “when I found out what i had, it was great. But I also knew what I had and I had to live with the realization that it would never get better.” This spoke to me. Misophonia isn’t easy to live with, hell, I wouldn’t wish this on anyone, but that doesn’t mean it’s impossible. Misophonia is livable, if that makes any sense. You can’t let the misophonia run your life, you have to see yourself outside of this disorder and make something useful out of it. Maybe it will inspire you to help others with disorders or to help others in general, no matter what you make out of it, make sure you get the best out of it.
You should have a mantra, “I am more than my misophonia” repeat in the mirror. On the way to school or work, tattoo it on you if you please. Just remember: you are more than this, you are more than anything that tries to limit you. If you believe in a God, believe that whatever God you believe in, must have some plan for you, and if you don’t, like me, know that, this is out of your hands and not your fault. Don’t blame yourself for having misophonia, accept that it’s something you developed and live your life. Why? Because it’s all you can do.
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